"And I realized...this wasn't a way to live. This was a way to die." (28 Days)


Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Slow and Steady

Today, I went to lunch at Qdoba. I was having a crazy day at home and had no time to grab anything more nutritious. Plus, it had been weeks since I had been there. So, I ordered a vegetarian taco salad and dug in. I was hungry when began. I ate until I felt full. And continued to eat. And eat. And eat, until it was gone. I was stuffed. After finishing, I took my quick, customary 15-minute lunch break walk and it was incredibly uncomfortable. I was so full and yucky-feeling.

I went to the forum for some support. I read a great thread in the Bare Bones Basics section and feel really comforted and secure in the fact that, for right now, I need to keep it as simple as possible. For now I will focus on what I said at the beginning: eating what I want when I'm hungry and stopping when I am full. At this point, I feel like I can't focus on anything else. I'm not even close to mastering this!

I'm seriously contemplating taking some time away from eating fast food. I don't oarticularly like fast food, but I find myself eating it more than I like. I love home-cooked food and take pleasure in eating leftovers. I just have to be better about preparing food. Normally I do this well, but work has been just bonkers lately. I am such a "Waste Not" eater. I hate the idea of letting food go to waste, especially given that we work so hard to afford it! I'm confused as to whether this is the diet mentality kicking in or a helpful way to learn to focus on my hunger and fullness. I've asked for some advice and hope to get some guidance soon.

I am feeling really calm about this. I know that I've eaten non-intuitively for many years and it's going to take some significant time to learn not to.

I've been doing rather well! I've decided not to begin running for now. For sure, I plan to wait until I get a little fitter and I feel more comfortable doing high-impact exercise. If I ever do--I love low-impact workouts and believe one can be healthy and fit without bouncing all over the place. I can't wait until I am out of school and have time to start belly dancing again. I absolutely adored it. I want to learn tap, too. For now, I've been lifting weights and walking. I feel really good about getting active. I've also been taking more care in my appearance and making sure to wear clothing that makes me feel good about my body. It's remarkable how much that's positively affected my attitude. It's time to stop saying, "When I'm thin, I'll...". I have to live now. My weight should never get in the way.

Today, Kalem and I sat down to dinner at the table and didn't talk much. We were very focused on our food. And, get this--we stopped when we were full! Hot dang! It felt great! I hope we soon learn how to do this and still have great dinner conversation! :)

I received my "Clearing Emotional Blocks" CD and will be posting a review soon!

4 comments:

thisisjustsweetenough said...

It sounds like you had an awesome dinner experience, and I think you are wise to focus on the very basic ideas of IE. I'm doing the same thing myself, and it does seem to be getting a bit easier. I love reading about your progress!!

I've thought about taking a belly dancing class, because I've heard so many raves. It's always so great to find an exercise that you really enjoy. I kind of feel that way about my kickboxing classes, although, I'm always looking for something new. Belly dancing might be just the ticket!

operationmuffintop said...

I've done that before too, many times!! But now I feel sooooo horrible after I overeat I'm careful to eat to that 70% full point...

Great job on dinner though!! :) Feels great to know when you've had "enough" doesn't it?

sharongracepjs said...

I read something on the 3fc forum - someone said, "Better to throw it in the garbage can than BE the garbage can." SO TRUE!

Keep sticking to your resources and cherishing your new food lessons...you'll have it mastered before you know it! Happy cooking! Happy eating!

Chavonne said...

You are all so right--eating intuitively feels so dang good. And Sweetie Pie, belly dancing is amazing. I recommend trying one class and seeing how much your body loves the beautiful and sexy (!) art. It's divine.